About two and a half years ago I was asked to write my own eulogy. An opportunity to reflect on what I wanted to be remembered for, what my legacy would be. My knowing showed me without hesitation.

I wanted to be remembered for “how I made people feel”.

My eulogy …

distilled down to these 5 words that are born from the thru line of my life. A line braided of presence, authenticity, and transformation. The line that is also the core of my craft.

In remembering and embodying what my soul came here for, my life experiences showed me barriers and challenges to this thru line. To discern when it is and is not present. And the full spectrum of qualities and variations. From an energetic lens, distortion and coherence.

Being a deep feeler, seeing in soul and energy shaped the way I related to the world around me from a young age. From my beginning I understood the simplicity and profound impact of presence and empathy. In school I was naturally drawn to variations in how people learned, connected, and expressed. I felt and observed the inconsistencies. I wasn’t just picking up on behavioral inconsistencies, also energetic fragmentations. This extended to the structures and systems inherited from my lineage and culture. What was easily accepted and considered normal did not make sense to me. I felt we weren’t asking enough questions, and often needed to look deeper or with a broader lens.

In college I pivoted from business to studying humanity through systems, sociology, and philosophy. While I was fascinated by systems and theories, I was also deeply interested in how they impacted the individual human. How it made them feel. The impact of culture, policy, humanitarian crises, on one individual being. On their heart and their spirit.

I wanted to be with individuals, hearing their stories, witnessing their humanity. Authentically in presence was most meaningful to me. My path led me to teach and witness others as a holistic Tensegrity Medicine practitioner, in bodymind and trauma informed care. Years of my own healing and inner exploration inspired me to study the human body and help individuals find the root cause of their suffering. In presence with my clients I witnessed the impact of larger systems on the individual body, mind, and spirit. I felt with them, the adaptations that landed in their cells, in their fascia. While simultaneously opening to the energetics of possibility. What may happen with the tissue and the spirit if the veils accumulated in the human experience were honored and considered variable.

I was honing my craft and deeply grateful to be learning with my clients and colleagues. Covid came with an immense amount of loss and as a catalyst for fundamental shifts. What felt like the earth falling out from under me, became a sacred invitation to presence with myself. In stillness. To see myself clearly and turn my capacity for love and presence inward. It was the manifestation of my lifelong commitment to integrity, heart, and values. This part of my journey unfolded in a way I never could have imagined. And I was reminded that the most formative experiences in my life had followed a similar pattern.

This chapter cannot be fully honored on this page, and it has been one of my greatest teachers in embodiment of my thru line. I removed myself 4500 miles from my former life to be granular about feeling, and BEing with what my system wanted to reveal to me. As I felt through my own patterns, emotions, beliefs, I also felt them as extensions of familial patterns and the larger collective as a whole. As I honored each one, I felt barriers within myself dissolve.

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